These are my confessions...

These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions

Just kidding, those are Usher's confessions. Mine are that I've been negligent in blogging and only blog when I'm doing super awesome. FREYA, do not fear. I don't usually eat just brussels sprouts for lunch. That was an off day, but I probably wrote because I wanted to curtail eating for the day and knew writing would help me do so.

Tomorrow I return to the gym. I've found a million reasons not to go this week that were all B.S. As of a few days ago (and I don't want to weigh myself tonight but I should), I was only two pounds away from having lost ten pounds since I started this Magical Weight Loss Journey. I seriously don't care how long it takes me to lose these pounds. The point is that I want to lose weight eventually and eat better and be stronger.

Also, tonight on her magical birthday, my anonymous roommate bought a vibrator. A new one was going to be a gift to myself when I reached 140 pounds. Yes, I can!

Good News/Bad News

Good news:

- I bought a dress in a size 8 (although it's pretty tight and also a fancy brand that probably makes the buyer feel skinnier)
- I have figured out how to make tuna fish the way my dad does, so I now have a no-frills easy source of protein. As long as I don't eat it too often (mercury?) I figure it's a great food to add to my repertoire. Anyone have anything else to add about tuna, either negative or positive? It seems pretty healthy - I buy the kind that is canned in water and I add only a few dollops of light mayonnaise.
- I resisted buying a giant bag of chips today when I was at the supermarket and really hungry and it was terribly tempting. But I'm trying to practice mindfulness a la Dan Mishkin, Alice's dad, who eats (or used to eat) the same way I do.

Bad news:

- I am sure I gained weight at my parents' house this weekend because they have lots and lots of yummy food.


Back to the gym! I went today and did the usual.

My basic problem area is my thighs. Everything else I feel pretty confident about and am sure will slim down with time. But my thighs are all...jiggly. Meh.

Happy Obama day! In honor of our awesome president, here's L Magazine's Guide to getting as fit as Barack Obama.

Cold and Snowy

Currently watching the first episode of "Friday Night Lights," a show I've heard some positive things about. It's also scored by Explosions In The Sky, which is a great instrumental/electronic (?) band. It's a really beautifully done show, but I hope it doesn't fall into the trap of making high school girls look 25 and act really slutty/seductive/overly confident. So far it's skirting on dangerous territory.

BREAKFAST

1 egg
1/2 cup of oatmeal

LUNCH

1/2 a bagel

DINNER

Shrimp and broccoli
Stir-fried zucchini
Salad

EXERCISE

Walked to work and back (2 miles)
15 minutes treadmill
10 minutes elliptical
25 minutes bike
Weights

Captain Obvious

Argh. I hate how easy it is to lose weight. I don't mean that it's easy in actual practice, but that there are no real tricks to it. All you need to do is eat less and exercise more. And I almost hate how easy it is because then there's no real excuse for failure.

For example, I've really tried in the last two days to exercise and eat better. And of course, I lost a pound and a half. My body is surprisingly malleable - if I treat it well, it responds in kind. Unfortunately, I am...bad...at...that. I can do really well for a few days and then someone has a potluck and it all goes out the window.

Anyway.

BREAKFAST

2 egg whites, 1 yolk

LUNCH

Chicken soup with wild rice and barley
Piece of bread

DINNER

Salad
Broccoli and a few pieces of shrimp

DRINKS/DESSERT

2 glasses of white wine
Milky Way

Sauna Etiquette

Today I did pretty well, aside from my sad lunch. I went to the gym (!) and had a very zen time in the sauna. What is sauna etiquette? I lay there by myself with a towel on my nether regions, leaving my top exposed. How naked is too naked in a sauna? I mean, I was by myself, so I wasn't offending anyone, but I'd like to know.

It was super relaxing.

BREAKFAST

1 egg white, 1 yolk

LUNCH

Zone bar

DINNER

Vietnamese food (Rice noodles, chicken, vegetables)

MOVIE SNACK

Twizzlers

EXERCISE

40 minutes bike
15 minutes treadmill
Weights

Other People's Food

Being at AJ's is hard for me because I tend to snack on her food, which I feel entitled to because she doesn't pay me. I usually bring something healthy for myself, but get noshy and antsy. Today was case in point - chocolate was offered to me, and after she left, I ate some of her bread. BREAD! Thou art my enemy.


Breakfast:

1 apple
1 banana
1/2 a cookie

Snack:

2 mini chocolate truffles @ AJ's

Lunch:

Black bean, onion, green pepper stir fry
Miso Soup

Dessert:

3 pieces of chocolate

Snack

2 plain hamburger rolls...arghhhh.

PLAN for dinner:

Salad
Shrimp and broccoli stir fry

PLAN for exercise:

Go to the gym!

Leftovers

BREAKFAST

2 chicken legs (yes, I'm strange)

LUNCH

Brussels Sprouts

DINNER

Shrimp & mushroom stir fry
Leftover won ton soup
Diet Coke

EXERCISE

Walk to work & back (2 miles)
35 minutes bicycle
15 minutes treadmill
10 minutes elliptical

Small Victories

A couple things have helped me lose my annoying holiday weight and return to my current 145:

1) Getting a stomach bug
2) Going back to the gym
3) Making small, good decisions. For example, today I passed by a Chipotle and I didn't go in and eat there. Even though I was somewhat hungry. And it was the same side of the street that I was on. Instead I kept walking - 35 blocks, as a matter of fact!

Now it's a matter of losing those next pesky five pounds. I'm going to the gym tomorrow and working my little tush off.

BREAKFAST

Mushroom omelette
Toast
A couple M&Ms

LUNCH

Spinach knish

SNACK

String cheese

DINNER

1 chicken leg
Edamame beans
1 apple

happy new year!

So I didn't make "losing weight" a New Year's resolution because it's sort of pointless . I actually didn't really make any resolutions this year because I usually end up breaking them, which is depressing. Also, it was the first year where New Year's Eve felt like any other fun night and New Year's Day felt like any other lazy day.

I've been eating poorly for these last few weeks, but now I've got a stomach bug, so everything I'm eating is going right through me. It's pretty gross. When I feel better, I'm going back to that lovely gym o'mine. I really do like it there. It's clean, uncrowded, and I feel totally anonymous. No chance of running into preppy girls from my high school, although going to the gym with friends IS more helpful.

Anyway, time to head to bed, as I am exhausted from all the holiday festivities and all the pooping.

Happy New Year everyone!

L