Back on track-ish

So I weighed myself and I am still 145...a miracle! So maybe I gained a pound during Thankgiving-palooza, but to still be at 145 makes me feel good.

I was sitting eating two giant bowls of cous-cous/chicken/spinach mixture, thinking about how healthy I was being despite my disgusting portions, when I stumbled upon this:


Yuppie Foodies Hoodwinked by "Health Halo"


Describes me to a T! Portion control ye are my nemesis.

Key Foods

I didn't eat a very healthy or filling lunch today, but I think my body sorely needed a break from being overstuffed. Tomorrow - the GYM!


BREAKFAST

Apple


LUNCH

Tortilla chips
Some Mary's Gone Crackers oh dear lord they are so good

SNACK

1 Weight Watchers 1-point cheese stick

DINNER

Salad
Carrots & Hummus
1 more Weight Watchers 1-point cheese stick

SNACK

100-calorie snack bag o'popcorn

Back On The Wagon

Man, being at my parents' house was like a black hole of food. I haven't eaten that much in a while. I realized that being there gives me this weird compulsion to NOT STOP EATING. I honestly don't feel that way when I'm in my apartment. Sometimes I feel "noshy" but I don't usually eat until I'm physically ill. Blech.

But now I've escaped and I'm back in lovely Queens, supplied with some healthy food donated by my mom. I didn't even weigh myself at home because I was too nervous to see what it would say, and I'm probably not going to weigh myself for another week or so. My sister said it was impossible for me to have gained back all the weight I lost...but I wouldn't put it past my quick-reacting body.

BREAKFAST/BRUNCH

Leftover turkey
Leftover risotto
1 clementine

LUNCH

Bagel

DINNER

Turkey
Risotto
Salad

SNACK

1 clementine
2 apples


The binge eater is backkkkkk!

Days Of Eating Poorly

Despite the fact that I've been eating terribly this week (due to anxiety and lack of sleep) I was still able to impress my grandmother with my minor weight loss. Yay!

"You look good," she said, wagging her finger at me. "Keep it up." This part was a bit menacing. "Keep it up. Get as skinny as a bean!"

Later, I made the mistake of admitting how I was really full from Thanksgiving.

Grandma: "It's all that bread!"
Me: "I didn't eat THAT much bread."
Grandma: "YES YOU DID!!!"

Was she watching me eat? Yeesh!

Luckily, my uncle (who is not psycho) also told me that I had lost weight. It was the first thing he said when I saw him, actually. This was nice. It makes me feel like this is working and it's not just in my head. I'm sure I've canceled it all out by this time, but I know I can get back on track. I eat so much better when I control my food. Right now I'm at my parents' house and it's just all-food-all-the-time.

Sleep/Food

I haven't been getting any sleep lately so of course I'm eating terribly. I'm trying to blog even when I eat poorly, so here goes. Basically, I don't usually eat so much
A) Chocolate
B) Straight-up simple carbs (pasta)


BREAKFAST

1/2 cup oatmeal
1 egg
1 brownie


LUNCH

Carrots
Pesto pasta & chicken


SNACK

1 Milky Way
1 Brownie

DINNER

Pesto pasta
Vegetables

One Of Those Body-Issue Type Things

I had a pretty weird/bad day of eating. I also haven't been to the gym in a while, mostly due to TIMING things. I've had lots of interviews/film screenings/social events to go to. In case that sounded too exciting, most of these interviews were along the lines of "Babysit my child for eight dollars an hour."

I'm not even going to weigh myself tonight because I can't imagine it's anything good. Last I checked, I was 144! I just want to think about that number and try to get back into the mindset.

Alice upped my self-esteem tonight when I modeled these black pants from the Gap that I got at the clothing swap. I guess they're flattering? I'm so used to hiding my body in skirts, it's really hard for me to feel confident in pants. I also have a tendency to wear like five bras. It's an addiction that comes and goes...I did it a lot in high school and now I'm back, a la Tobias Funke and his cut-offs. I'm so jealous of all the women out there with their perky boobs. That's why this is one of my favorite 30 Rock moments:



Tomorrow is another day. Sallyforth!

BREAKFAST

Egg white omelette
Rice & Beans

SNACK

15+ little Kashi crackers
1/2 Pomegranate

SNACK #2

Milky Way

DINNER

Chipotle Chicken Burrito

Overeating

BREAKFAST

1 cup oatmeal


LUNCH

Diet Coke :(


DINNER

2 Portabella Veggie Burgers
1 cup of couscous (A LOT)
Spoonful of rice & beans that I was cooking for tomorrow


Of course, with this uneven eating, I feel pretty sick right now. Blagh.