woman troubles

So I got my period today, which was kind of a bummer, since the first day always makes me feel really ill. Luckily Alice gave me some sort of super-strength pain reliever and once I was at work, my personal hell lifted and I was able to act like a normal human being. In the afternoon I felt sick again, and when it subsided I suddenly felt very hungry. So I ate a healthy-but-big dinner. In general, today:

BREAKFAST

1/2 cup oatmeal

LUNCH

Bean/corn/onion salad
Chicken and veggies

DINNER

Essentially the same as lunch
Diet Coke


Exercise? Nope, not a chance, I was feeling very fetal-position-y. Tomorrow I really need to step it up. And I've announced it here, on this very blog, so I must follow through!

Other disappointments for me:
1. Portion control! Notice the healthy foods above? I need to measure them out so I'm not eating the equivalent of three people's meals
2. Alice informed me that beans are very high in carbs. Hm. I guess I have to eat them more sparingly.

Thanks for the wonderful comments, Rischa & Freya! I had the same reaction when I saw the 90210 pictures. And in terms of eating after dinner, it's definitely been dangerous for me, with that "Last Meal" mentality. However, I do have some portion control issues - if I don't cut myself off after dinner, my evening becomes one never-ending snack. So I think that I'm going to try it for now.

I still haven't bought a scale. Dumb question - where does one buy one? I miss Meijer , which has everything under the sun. I went to Rite Aid, but that didn't seem so promising.

And lastly, on a positive note, I would like to pictorially convey what I am excited about when I DO actually lose this weight:



Bikinis! I have never owned a bikini in my life. The last time I wore one, I was two years old. (It was polka-dotted and very cute). It would be pretty thrilling to be able to wear even the most conservative bikini at some point in my life. And I think if I work a little bit harder, it's definitely a possibility...